Almost a month has gone by and you still haven’t left my mind, my thoughts, my dreams. I still cry for you. I know you’d laugh at me and tell me to quit being emo, but knowing that I’ll never see your smile, or hear your laughs or your jokes again, it hurts. Memories of you haunt me. The first time we met, the first thing out of your mouth was a joke. I remember it so clearly. I had just moved in and you were in the pool, and I came over and you said “Awww, she’s got that tiger thang going on!” I remember our talks walking back and forth from the bus stop, I remember our chats on facebook, our texts, hanging out at the pool. I remember when we used to fight, and whoever was mad at the other one gave them the “silent treatment” and walked retarded fast up the hill to avoid the other. Neither one of us could stand to be wrong. Now I hate myself for every time, because those were conversations we could have had that I lost out on. I remember the look on your face when I told you I was moving away, but you helped me move my furniture anyways, even though you said your girlfriend would be mad if she knew you were over. You were the reason I got into football. I hated hearing about the Gators 24/7 but now I’m regretting not paying attention… They really did lose their greatest fan. And you know, it really pisses me off that I’m not going to see you on TV playing for them some day. I swear that I was going to see you there, and be able to say, hey, their star line backer was my neighbor!!! You had more going than all of the rest of us combined. You were SO damned smart! Alright, confession time. My mom used to ask me why I never dated you, and I told her once that it was because you were smarter than me. I absolutely HATED how you were smarter than me, but honestly it’s probably why I liked you so much. We could talk about anything and relate to each other, and you always gave the best advice. It made me feel so important when you’d ask me for advice. I wish you were here, I really do. I can’t seem to understand WHY, out of EVERYONE, it had to be you. I don’t know if I’ll ever get over it. I would have taken your place in a heartbeat. Really, truly, I wish it would have been me instead. But it breaks my heart to know that it wasn’t.
I’m sorry. I love you, forever and always. I will never forget you <3
I miss you
